do ya ever bring your pet up to a mirror and ur like “that you”
I know, and thank you for this. It’s just it was always my life dream to live in NYC and I am living here, but I hate it. I don’t know where to go with my life now.
Lmao I’m a failure at everything. I’m most likely moving out of New York because I can’t afford to live here and I hate it and I haven’t eaten in idk how many days and I just don’t want to be here. i don’t know what I want to do with my life. I miss my mom. I miss my cat. I’m a fucking mess and I’m so miserable that I’ve had to mentally convince myself not to jump in front of the train. It’s so embarrassing because I’m constantly crying and I can’t think straight and I don’t even know what I’m doing half the time. I’m as thin as I was when I had to leave university the first time and when I was supposed to be admitted to a hospital but talked my way out of it. I yet again have proved I’m incapable of being an actual person and I cannot function on my own and need to be taken care of. I’m so pathetic and embarrassing.
one thing people should never do to me is make any comment about my body, good or bad, because that’s reminding me i have a body and you can see it.